The Worried Woman Odes

Wildflowers

Beloved, I keep returning to you,

your splendor, blue,
crimson, yellow.          Wondering
how long before your light fades

         and you leave us, a mother
who leaves her mind
                  in the sun.

Blood Pressure

O the vessels
         breaking in my love’s eyes,
         the cuff that caresses him
         like I do, in the dark.
                  Please, body-wonder,
                  drop, make the roaring
                  stop.
You’re rushing,
and I need
                           so much
                           more time

                           with him.

Papers

Canvas, dearest one.
         I pull you up, gaze at words
         like “argue” and “survey,”

study the rubric, Meets
Expectations, and I long
          to love you, to care about

          each curve of the words.
I long to believe someone
will read my comments

about what needs
to be changed.

                              I want to change
                              everything.

AR-15s

O your long straight
necks, your bullets,
the way children
are taught to embrace
you. Smile
for the camera!
Don’t think
about the
bodies
you
were
made
to destroy.
You are powerful. See, you
turn mothers                                        into hurricanes.

Death

Yes, I get the subtext.
I try not to be afraid
of you, O brittle one.
Of the ways
you reach for us,
are always reaching
for us.

                              This isn’t closure.
                              It’s an open field,
                              and I am still picking flowers.

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